THE STATE IS NOT GOD!

long time no blog. hi :)

today has gotten off to a very weird start, to say the least. i wont get into it though. another story for another time.

its been raining cats and dogs for the past two days. working has been a pain in the ass - running in and out of my car to stores, dragging displays inside. hopefully these produce managers dont mind a wet rat walking around their store. apparently, part of 95 has been shut down as well, over near Cranston, RI. March is really flowing smoothly into April - April showers bring May flowers, but enough is enough.

As for art, i feel like ive been in a rut. i have so many ideas but never the motivation to complete anything. ive put myself on hold of starting anything new until i finish what ive already started. i have two pieces that i just cant wrap my hands on, which is pretty odd for me considering i usually have an obsession with making sure things, especially my art, are finished completely and perfectly to my liking. My painting of Cooper that i started over 2 years ago, and the skateboard I received in the mail a year ago from Fishbone, are only half finished. I think subconsciously, i havent finished Fishbones board merely because I despise giving my art away. In my eyes, the only person who can and will adore my work, and respect it to its fullest, is myself. letting go is my biggest fear and it comes into play in every aspect of my life. however, ive made great leaps in the past few months and i plan on only learning and living more.

Enough of that lameo talk... what i HAVE done the past few weeks is what i like to call "Zombiefying". Just a lil something fun and new. Ive never worked with makeup or photography much and im looking to brush up on my photoshop skills. I recently have been reading "Pride, Prejudice & Zombies", so i guess you could say its is where my inspiration has come from. I have done three, thus far, and am looking to switch it up a bit with my next "victim", Joanna. ;)

Hope you like.

a piece of you for a piece of me.

this rain is making me les miserables. thanks mother nature, but a few days of straight rain was enough. now bring on the sunny spring weather!!

lets see, what is new?! this past weekend i went home with chris. it is so fanatic just being a complete couch potato sometimes. despite my super intense allergy attack on sunday, it was an extremely relaxing and needed weekend. going home now feels like a mini vacation. i dont sleep in my own bed, im allowed to sleep as late as i want, i have dinners cooked for me and i get to go out to nice restaurants with two people i truly care about. not to mention, my mother acts like my own personal assistant. im pretty sure her goal whenever i arrive is to fatten me up by offering endless amounts of goodies. of course, right when i decide to go on my "anti-sweets diet". ah wells.

in other news, i am EXTREMELY excited for the month of may. ive been going on a concert ticket purchasing binge today. i miss that feeling. steeping into a venue knowing for a fact that i am going to have a spectacular time watching one of my most favorite bands play their hearts out on stage. its so strange to think that the time of my life that i was an epic concert junkie was when i was in college. totally broke but somehow always rummaged up enough cash to see a show. i dont know if its because ive weeded out the bands that were "fads" for me at the time, or if its because i recently have severely divulged myself, my time, and my heart in the few bands that really touch my music no no zones... but lately, i feel like ive been seriously lacking in my attendance at shows. However, thus far for the month of may, i have already RSVP'ed to four shows by purchasing tickets. i cant wait. i need that feeling. the excitement that i often confuse for nervousness. listening to the rhythms - triggering emotions and memories. being drowned out by the sound system, despite how loud i am singing along. uniting with complete strangers. throwing my hands in the air. moving my body. tapping my foot. closing my eyes - taking it in. the lights. the smell. not caring who may be watching. letting go.

im ready.

Minus The Bear: May 5th

Skate Fest with The Receiving End of Sirens,
The Dear Hunter & Envy On The Coast: May 8th

As Tall As Lions: May 9th

Circa Survive: May 17th

drip drip drop

Nom nom nom. just a lil guy a created a few weeks ago. ive decided to do some more "fun" pieces of work, rather than my usual serious types. I always tend to find myself painting more realistically than i want. on this one, i even had to stop myself from shading too much and adding depth. its not where i wanted to go. what a strange feeling. stopping yourself from doing something that usually comes natural. well, regardless, i love how it came out. its now hanging in our kitchen :)

that is all! toodles!

So, I've created a blog. What of it?!

Well, well, well...

What do we have here? I have turned to the dark side and decided to create a blog to showcase some of my thoughts and my artwork. I am hoping this is the beginning of a wonderful relationship. :)

Things have been magnificent with me as of late. I am loving my life entirely and enjoying every moment I have. It is strange, yet fulfilling, to finally admit that I am getting back on my feet again and am feeling like my myself. Its been too long.

I don't have much to post, as of yet, since this is just my first warm up/starter blog.

More things to come!